"There's nothing wrong with loving who you are" She said, "'Cause he made you perfect, babe" "So hold your head up girl and you'll go far, Listen to me when I say" I'm beautiful in my way 'Cause God makes no mistakes I'm on the right track, baby I was born this way Don't hide yourself in regret Just love yourself and you're set I'm on the right track, baby I was born this way -- Lady Gaga |
Was that the sound of hell freezing over? Did Steven just post a melody on a Saturday? Did Steven just post Lady Gaga? (Doubt it, yup, yup.) |
For years, I have wrestled with my depression. Some days better than others.
And God knows I have two great questions. Why and how.
- Why am I afflicted with this dark cloud? (Not so much a "Why would you, oh God, let this / inflict this on me", as a "what factors have conspired against me")
Is it genetic - a predisposition that could be found on my DNA? Is it merely a chemical inbalance in the brain? Is it a result of environment, the way I was raised or what I was taught? Is it something I'm more inclined to because...I'm smarter than the average bear? Did something happen to me to affect me so severely? Or is it merely a rational reaction to stress and/or isolation in my life? - How...how do I break these clouds? What must I do to be delivered? Is it nothing more than a point of view that can be defeated with the right argument? Can I think myself happy? Or do I need to find the right preacher to pray for me, lay hands on me, etc? Or is this my 'thorn in the flesh'? Is it a right mix of pharmaceuticals with damnable side effects - or some concoction of vitamins, herbs (legal ones), and/or minerals? Or do I just need to make sure I don't go too long without meat?
I've always wanted to host a game where I'd give a Carnac-like clue, and the answer would be the name of a #1 single. So, if the answer is "born this way", the clue would be "naked, screaming, and a lot shorter"
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